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|Confessions of My Father’s Daughter|
Oct. 14th, 2006 at 9:13 pm
I smelled it on the street last evening, just a whiff left by somebody who must have just gotten into a car. He â€“ it must have been a he â€“ couldnâ€™t have been going into a building, and it calls for more leisure than a cigarette addict can spare on a 10-minute break. So I imagine his wife must have been late driving by the corner where she picks him up from work, and he had pulled out his pipe, filled its bowl with tobacco, and patiently passed the time waiting for his ride.
The smell of pipe tobacco always reminds me of my father â€“ oddly, since he gave up his pipe sometime before he was baptized, when I was only five years old. While I choke on second-hand cigarette smoke and gag when I find myself walking behind a cigar, I confess that I actually like the sweet scent of pipe tobacco.
I have pictures of my dad holding his pipe. Mom said he never really smoked it, just lit it and forgot he was holding it until he discovered it had gone out. Somehow, though, the smell of pipe tobacco makes me feel cozy and loved, and I can only guess it is because that is how I felt as a tiny girl cuddled in my dadâ€™s arms, unconsciously making memories.
One night when I had an earache â€“ could I have been more than two or three? â€“ Dad came to my bedside and relieved it by blowing hot smoke into my ear. I have other memories of him at my bedside, blessing me by the power of the priesthood, one time assisted by my mother because no other elder was available .
Somehow I overlooked last Wednesday the second anniversary of Dadâ€™s passing. It took the ghost of some strangerâ€™s pipe tobacco yesterday to remind me how much I miss him.