I believe I’m one of the truly undecided voters in this country. I’ve been impressed with Barak Obama from the beginning. Because I have terrible judgement about people and often find myself charmed and regretting (as in the case of Bill Clinton), I don’t trust my attraction to Obama as a candidate. He seems perfect, in so many ways, that I have to think there’s a huge catch.

However, I believe in most of the Republican party platform ideals, although I am pro-choice and applaud the Democrat’s strong stand on civil rights and race issues. As I’ve written before, I tend to judge (often stupidly)by what I perceive to be character, or lack thereof, in the people running. I go with my gut.

Last night I watched 20/20 do a story on each candidate and their families and I remembered the reservations I’ve had about McCain since day one. I’ll remind you:

1. I’m immensely bothered that his wife wasn’t prosecuted in her drug addiction scandal. The doctor involved lost his license, but he wrote those phony prescriptions at her request. Does McCain pick and choose moments of integrity?
2. His involvement in the Keating scandal. Again, his wife was involved financially with Keating. Is his wife his Achilles heel?
3. He was unfaithful to his first wife. His admission of guilt and responsibility do not negate his infidelity, which leads to #4
4. He doesn’t seem faithful to his party or their ideals. Some, I do not agree with. But I believe you go home with the guy who brought you to the dance and some of his waffling indicate a weakness in character. I feel if he felt that strongly about his reservations, he should have left the party and like Joe Lieberman, become an Independent. Oh, but then he probably never could have run for president.

I don’t have any reservations about Barak Obama except he makes me nervous. And I like what he says about Iraq. I want out of there yesterday. They can say they won, I don’t care. I want every American soldier out of there. He has a good marriage and a wife he can trust not to break the laws of the country.

I still don’t know how I’m going to vote. I don’t care much for Joe Biden. But John McCain, despite his hero status and his claim of being a Maverik, has managed to dodge a lot of bullets by claiming ignorance or simply saying, “I made mistakes.” He’s been given a pass. I wonder if his definition of a
Maverik is simply pragmatism, temper tantrums when he doesn’t get his way, and a feeling of entitlement based on his suffering in Vietnam.

Everything he’s said in recommendation of Sarah Palin, I could also say about Barak Obama.

And crap, I might end up voting for Ralph Nader.